Surain considered herself a water person. I doubt she had any hesitation joining the dragon boat team when she heard that she could paddle AND be a part of a cancer support group. It wasn't like her to have reservations in the face of a new adventure. She said dragon boating "spoke to her". Twenty-two women in one boat that have all heard the words "You have cancer". She loved the fact that the members of the TSNW dragon boat team give each other support in dealing with the disease, but that cancer isn't the major topic of conversation.

She wanted to be a positive representative of not only how to live after a cancer diagnosis, but also that there is a positive future if the cancer returns. She was disappointed that she wasn't that positive roll model. I think she was. Surain taught us all how to live and those of us that were with her during her last few weeks know that she also taught us how to die.

I'd guess that sometime during her life, Surain heard William Penn's words "I shall pass through life but once. Let me show kindness now, as I shall not pass this way again." I know she embodied those words.

Ah, Surain, there is so much I still want to learn from you. All the little questions: How did you put those cute little characters in your e-mails? What recommendations do you have for fundraising? What wonderful places did you discover in India? What delicious foods did you taste in Indonesia? Can I go with you on one of your wonderful trips? And the Big ones: How can you accept the reality of your death without anger or fear? From where does your inner sense of serenity come? How can you be gone when there are so many of us that still need you? I guess we'll have to take comfort from what you have left behind. The photos Robert so lovingly gathered on the website. The stories from your many generous friends that give a glimpse into your soul. The way your eyes still shine through your family. The legacy you left behind that shows us your heart.

Yes, Surain, you've touched us all. And I know now that we haven't felt your last touch. I can only say, "Thank You, dear friend".

Diane Bowlin

Team Survivor Northwest Dragon Boat Teammate